Where is my mother? I'm lost and alone in the dark. There is a dark shadow leaning over me that is bringing a deep chilling cold to my body.

Where is my mother to give me warmth, Where is my mother to bring me out of the dark

Into the light, Where is my mother to hold me and to protect me, Where is my mother to chase of the shadows that are bringing me pain and hurt?

I'm frightened as if the world around me is closing in and there is no escape for me.

The pain is great, a huge wound upon my body and soul that refuses to heal.

It's bleeding draining me of the life that I so dearly want to hold onto.

The shadow lurking over me so dark that it refuses to let the healing light and warmth in.

Where is my mother to hold me and to cuddle me telling reassuring me that all is going to be all right?

The tears are there but they wont show them selves for the fear that no one is there to dry

Away and wipe off the sorrow that they bring out.

I'm hurt with the touch of a man that was in trusted with my life and safety to protect me from harm.

This very man that I called father, he took away from me my life my dignity my chance to grow and become a man.

He robbed me of the precious life that a child needs to grow, the innocence of a childhood wiped away with in a single moment bringing on the hurt and pain that haunts me yet today.

Where is my mother that I need so dearly to hold me and shower me with the love from only which a mother can deliver?

Why does she protect the man that caused me my pain and sorrow so much hurt and distress.

Where is my mother?

Has she abandoned me in the dark? leaving me there to remain in the cold of the pain trying to survive on my own?

Is she to busy for me? Her own flesh a child she gave birth to letting him run alone in the shadows letting him come into harms way?

Where is my mother?

     Karl Miller 05/31/00